Fun Inside My Heart

Day by day- then go to year by year, I just feel physically companion during relax time, but mostly mentally alone! The time people prefer gathering and playing fun, I prefer staying alone, and enjoy calm in mind! what kind of the person I am!

Yes, I long for a new year celebration in mind too! because I am not the man who easily enjoy with entertainments, gathering, party,, drinking, or sth else in this category. What I mostly want is to have a hearty ally- i.e. to have some1 stay  heartily connected to me, to celebrated happy and sad time with me, so that I won't feel internally alone.

I need her because most friends only share physical joy and sad with me, but they can't share fun and sad moment deep inside my heart. But where is her? Do I meet her already or not yet?